I don’t know what it is but I’m feeling pretty good, like I’m on some natural high or something. Not sure why. Maybe when the Birthday finally came, it felt more liberating than anything. Weird. Especially since the days leading up to it had me all doom and gloom.
Or maybe it’s knowing I do have some really great friends who care about me. Even spoiling me (and honestly, I never get spoiled, I really don’t) with my latest Birthday presents. Got some more goodies in the mail from Cindy again today. Some of my favorite mascara, a mermaid necklace which I’m loving and her and her hubster’s famous homemade scented soaps. Love them all and I actually teared up looking at my goodies and thinking of my friends. Yes I’m a cornball. I’m totally sentimental.
It may even be other things going on. Things like losing love but at the same time wishing him nothing but genuine happiness and wondering what could have been. I think about some nice memories in my mind with such love and fondness. I miss him.
I looked in the mirror today and after I finished putting on my new plum colored lipstick I thought, “It has to be said, I’m a damn cool chick. I’m a treasure waiting to be discovered and I will make someone rich.”
Now if I could just get the job I was meant to have………
Maybe I’ll feel down again in the next min or next week. It comes and goes of course given all my situations. All I know is right now I feel happy and very sexy. This just has to be my hot 40th year.