I still have mixed feelings about FB. I still really don’t care for it yet I have given it a fair chance. Been adding people I know currently and in the past. From jobs and now have been adding relatives. I still like Twitter and blogging much, much better. Yes FB can help you connect but I still hate all the bragging and nosiness it reeks of.
One thing in particular has been bothering me lately. Seeing everyone with their kids. I can’t help but feel sad every time I see one of my friends with a new baby or showing pictures of the kiddies in their accomplishments or cute swimsuits. Of course I’m very happy for them, don’t get me wrong. It’s just more reminders that I am turning another year older in just a little over a month and still childless. I never married and so time is ticking away and I get this really heavy sinking feeling that I’m going to be denied the chance to be a mother at this point. Birth is a miracle I’m not going to experience along with little arms reaching around my neck for a hug or an I love you mommy whispered in my ear. I won’t have someone to help grow up and shape into a great human being to cheer them on in their accomplishments and comfort them in their woes.
It makes having FB hard to look at sometimes because everyone I know has kids. Everyone. Every single person I know. It hurts knowing that I may not even get the opportunity. If given the opportunity today, am I too old at this point? Is it too late for me? It makes me ask, if I don’t get to have children then what do I get in return?