In the last few years I have been fascinated by the concept of time.
At one point, before I got laid off, I was thinking about a particular wall in my living room and how I wanted to decorate it. I have vaulted ceilings so two of my walls are huge and roomy. I was planning on painting the room and thinking of a decorating theme. For some reason I kept going back to a “time” theme. I couldn’t shake it. I had this idea of putting up various types of clocks on the wall and on the mini shelves. Different colors, sizes, styles.
I got the idea from a decorating magazine and it honestly was really neat. I couldn’t get rid of the idea. I even thought of stenciling a cool quote or two on the wall about time to go with it. I was also planning some great photos of me, family and friends in various pretty picture frames on the shelves too.
Of course I never got to re-do my living room and the walls are still bare and unpainted. This is due to the lay off and time being unemployed. I still plan to finish it sooner or later if I can make a decent paycheck again. Maybe next years tax return. I already have quite a few of the knick knacks to hang, waiting in the closet.
I’m still fascinated by time and for some reason it is seriously mocking me these days. I have just started paying attention again and I feel as if I have wasted a lot of it. I look at what has happened to my career, achievements (or lack there of), my education, my weight, my singleness, dating, how lack of finances has stopped things for me and everything else under the sun.
I hear a constant ticking in my ear lately and it seems to get louder. Maybe that is why I have felt anxiety lately. All I know is I am feeling some urgency and time to start looking at things more closely. Maybe I shouldn’t wait to decorate that wall. I should get it done so that I have that reminder that we shouldn’t put things off, that we should do them now. The quotes below are really good as we always seem to put off the best life for ourselves.